Poem: New


The year

opens up

melting light across

the sky

pinkish wash

hopeful

pulling yellow rimmed

brown faces

set on

stately stalks

toward the sun

to start

again

 

 

 

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Taking Off Into 2017


Yes I am looking right ahead to next year. I am staring it down without fear or trepidation. Bring it on!

There were times when I had to tuck into myself last year. Things aren’t always easy or forth coming. But we press on the best we can. And eventually we come around…

We are able to begin to spread our wings again. If I keep reminding myself I can fly, then I know it will be ok. Even if occasionally I have to rest, or change what I’m doing. In the end I’ll be at it again. 

And so I am ready to take off into next year. I’m not sure where I’m going or where I’ll land. But my wings are spread, my head is high and my eyes are looking for that new adventure on the horizon. 

The Choice


After much agonizing and soul-searching, I’ve decided to go with the first job. In fact, I’m not even going to the second interview tomorrow. I’ve had wonderful advice from my dear and devoted friends, and my heart has whispered to me too.
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We must listen: both to our heart and our friends! Both can know our souls when our brain may not. When we are quiet and don’t rush, the answers can come. This is growth for me, as I used to make many decisions hastily and without consideration. These came, often, with deep regrets as their hand-maidens.

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So, after balancing, I’ve realized these things: my best furry friend would be miserable after 12-hours of me being gone, even if I could run home briefly to let him out for a quick bathroom run. It simply is not fair to him and he is important to me–he is family after all. He made the sacrifice, leaving his home faraway to come all the way here, so now I must do what’s best for him too.

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Plus the first job is considerably more pay because it carries more responsibility (which will be cool) and started out with such good karma! The staff was so great and kind and saw my worth and recommended me for the better job immediately. This is the place I should be. The second position had some negative karma and the patient contact is really minimal–nothing compared to what I’ve been used to as a paramedic.

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It’s the right choice–I know this to be true. So I will start the New Year with joy and excitement. Some trepidation too, but soon I will settle in and be rolling along feeling comfortable in my new position!

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Thanks for all your support!!

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Happy 2014


 

As we wrap up 2013 and look ahead to a new year, I find myself in a very different place. Last year was a place of searching, pain and digging deep. But I believe I’ve come through to the other side and as I approach 60 years old (!), I can finally say I’m reaching real inner peace.

This is a time for many of us to set our resolutions. And when I looked at our local paper where they had randomly picked people on the street and asked them theirs, I noted most had inward facing ones. Last year was my year of inward facing resolutions I suppose. As I ground through the garbage of my past and tried to see into the mist of the my future, last year was basically centered around me.

We all need years where we focus on ourselves to heal, grow and hopefully expand. And once these tasks are accomplished we are ready to face the world as our new selves. I’d like to believe we face it with strength, energy, love and joy if we’ve done the hard work.

So this year, while I won’t stop keep working on me, my main goal is to face outward more. To give more and do service to others. Service for people who need it and want it. I’ve spent many years and much energy on people who really don’t want my help. And now it’s time to shift that energy in a more receptive population.

Also I hope to spend more time giving to the environment, animals and anywhere else I see a need. I’m ready to take the inner peace and strength I’ve gained through this last year and spread the vibrations.

May you all have mindful, realistic and magical resolutions that will ripple through this year to make you and this world better!

Happy New Year!