Days
where my skin rubs against
the surrounding particles
of the long dead others
and also
silent trapped thoughts
running fingers down
my nakedness
They absorb
into my open pores
and seep into the recesses
those closed in spaces
in between the cells
and shackled together
by this fleshy scarred coat
It chills
and pulls taut
over bones and blood
stretched to breaking
by times passing
This living hull
scratched and worn
Home
until the day
it joins
the earth
What started as hard
could be easy in the end
Life is a gamble
where not knowing is a friend
Looking back is simple
and seeing all the pain
but to only guess the future
and its crazy moving train
Hoping that it goes forward
towards fields of golden light
and the tracks that lay behind
are now distant out of sight
Yet still we step upon this ride
without a future sure
and surf the bumps and valleys
through tunnels insecure
Then to take this trip
and the curves that may befall
because the only other choice my friend
is to not be here at all…?
Walk slowly into the day
feet firmly planted
on the solid ground
one
ahead
of the other
Before the earth
tilts
and everything begins
rushing
at warp speed
into a completely
unrecognizable
world
A missing gem
among the living
never there to begin with
The universe figured out
the reality of the ending
before it even started
Then we figure out
how to plug the hole
that ended up
being left
Sometimes I forget
when I am writing on the
steamy bathroom mirror
about happiness and joy
–my daily prayers
because life feels lacking
And I forget
when my wants
walk in front of my needs
I forget and I forget–
Until I remember
how close it was
the demon snapping at your heels
And every phone call feeling like dread
Or the day I looked in your window
and saw you lying on your mattress
on the floor
too still
Or when you first told me about
the problem
But then
I stop forgetting
and remember
and know that my life
has really been fine
since the moment
your life
got OK
In a billion years
the sun will burn hot bright
Giant red star
from afar
A pinpoint light
yet earth so near
Its searing heat
shall render cinders
the planet blue
once so sweet
And waters now dry
long before life will flash
The living planet
will blacken and die
A star was born
and so is cursed
The question is
will man kill earth first
One more sick
abandoned child
take Lucifer’s hand
and go Heaven up
to rain down wild
with hate no heart
Your Mother left dark
Father a hole
nothing you took
would fill your soul
The world now turns
17 lighter
Shattered and sadness
killing the gladness
Add to the countless
that suffer their fate
The spirits gather round
holy disquieting gate
for they wait
in bloodless shock
as the next enter
their flock
The rutted road
winding
unfamiliar paths
carved by years
The rolling tracks of scraping tears
and curving twist of mirth’s sharp shape
A body once
so ripe and round
now clinging close
decaying dark
in parts unseen
Sluggish now to greet the day
but still its beauty
sweet
For each step sacred
the more
and more
we take
I do
bear the burden
of sin
When you
enslaved
destroyed
and
displaced
impoverished
and
murdered
robbed
and
lied
cheated
It is the
shame
of my skin
and
duty
of my soul
to
rectify
The rain it falls
and forests burn
Pink sun she rises
constellations turn
Insects forever crawl
dull rivers flow
Hot deserts whither
Nor’easters blow
Dirt and bone
we come and go
The earth moves on
and does not owe
