So this is the article I am submitting in response to my decision to being asked to reconsider my resignation at my job:
My April Fool’s Day
When I moved here in September, it was for a few reasons. The main reason was to be close to my Mother, but it was also to be away from the brutal New England weather and to retire from a stressful career where my co-workers often did not care about one another.
It’s been a blessing living near my Mom and the weather is sublime.
Applying for jobs was exhausting, and when Bethesda called I was very excited. I actually had applied for a different position than the one I am currently in, but with my experience, they felt I would be better suited for this one.
They were forthcoming about the stress of the job, which made me a bit nervous at the time because of my hopes for coming here mentioned above, but assured me about teamwork among colleagues.
It’s been three months, and yes indeed, it’s stress on steroids! I’ve seen how the stress reveals parts of people that probably, under normal circumstances, wouldn’t bubble to the surface. Some of these parts have directly affected me and, I won’t lie, this has been difficult.
For years I’ve been told ‘you are too sensitive’ or ‘have a thicker skin’ and often it made me feel there was something wrong with me. But as I grew older, I realized that I embrace this part of me and know that this is what makes me a kind, compassionate and loving person. I don’t want to keep people out with a thick skin and I prefer being sensitive to the world around me.
So I had to make a decision about the stress once again in my life and if I wanted to (not could) deal with it. And after much soul searching I decided to resign on Friday, April 1. Even though it killed me because there are so many wonderful people and I actually really like the job and am not ever a quitter. But I had also promised myself not to live a stressful life anymore.
Amazingly though, something happened. I was asked to reconsider. And many people, including some that had been stressed out directly at me, came to me and were very kind.
This made me think about some things.
- We all have our troubles, so trying to be conscious that another person may be suffering personally may help us to be more patient
- We all are tired and over worked, but acting as a team will help us all in the long run
- A smile and a kind word goes a long way
- Someone we think may not care, really might in the end but just may not know how to show it in the moment
- Be the first one to extend a helping hand, or even consider being social with someone
- Try to talk directly to the person first if you hear something you don’t like—remember: don’t assume
- Let’s accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative in regards to people, how we say things and our attitudes
I guess this all sounds hokey and maybe I’m being unrealistic. But my feeling is that if we reach high than maybe we may obtain at least just short of our goals. And this is better than not reaching at all.
The decision then about reconsidering? After so many great people asked me to, and because I am hopeful and positive person…
The answer was absolutely!
I’m not sure how my co-workers will take it. They are a mixed and motley bunch. Some may be sympathetic and find it inspiring and others may find the words insipid. None the less, I am choosing to put them forth, just like I put myself forth every day in my blog to my blogging community. Many here hail me, some have walked away. Hey, it’s a free country and freedom of speech is regarded highly and we must be brave when we put ourselves out there to a new audience.
So shall I do when this gets published in our Surgical Services Newsletter. And then let the commenting commence….