July 1, 1956


Fifty nine years ago an unknown woman gave birth to a baby.
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Today I sit here on this rainy day contemplating my life and this last year. Where has it gone…the old war cry we all whimper as we look in the mirror in horror and see another face staring back at us. No longer the youthful smile smirking back at us–the one ready to conquer the world. Instead, the laugh lines we have earned encircle our lips and shape our features and mold our current beauty.

I had hoped my house would be sold by now and I would celebrate today with my adopted Mom in my new home. Her birthday is June 28th and she turned 88. She too lamented at the turning of the wheel of time, still feeling young and healthy. Maybe next year, we say, we will celebrate our special days together?
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But of course, we never know what this year may bring. My last year within the decade as a 50-year-old. I recalled remembering my Grandma in her 60’s and thinking: she is old! And yet, now I quickly approach my 60’s! My high school friends and I wonder how this could be? Weren’t we just laughing in class together, passing notes and causing trouble?

As a gift to myself I am getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow! Why is it they are called wisdom teeth and they are removed as we get older? If they retain our wisdom, shouldn’t they stay?

I’ve reflected on the wisdom that I’ve hopefully obtained in my life. The clichés abound about old age and wisdom. Am I really getting older and better? Let’s hope so. Sometimes we try to obtain wisdom, sometimes life dumps it on us through trial and error and painful experiences. Sometimes we won’t listen to people trying to give us wisdom even when we should. But eventually we get where we should be.
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It feels more peaceful, more slow, more sure now that I’m older. I’m still the same person and I have my moments for sure, but I do seem to cope with the world in a better way. There’s more quiet in my life. I’ve learned to let things go–let people go. I’m more sure of what I want and don’t want.

Looking forward it’s hard to believe I may only have 30 or so years to go, especially when these 59 went so fast. Let’s hope Einstein’s theory was right. Savoring every moment, standing still and absorbing a moment does seem to slow time down.

My hands are older; my heart holds so much now: the weight of the world, lost loves,  past pets and a withering earth. But I also know about hope, the kindness of strangers, the enthusiasm of youth. All these things may save us yet.
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33 thoughts on “July 1, 1956

    1. That’s what my cousin called it too! It comes fast, so enjoy!! I was wondering if I would have to change the name of my blog to lastthirdwoman or something…ha ha!

  1. As this day unfolds and a new day is just around the corner, remember that you are a very special person. A person who loves unconditionally without hesitation or reservation. Your birthday is a special day, a day to celebrate you! May your knew year bring you the best of life, love and happiness.

    1. Thanks so much Susan…your words mean so much to me…. I leave this ‘life’ (the one you know here) with certain regrets, while others I’m happy to see gone. I do love many unconditionally and am hoping in my new life, this love can be given in a new and wonderful way to those who may ‘need’ it or want it. It should be a very exciting and interesting year ahead! Please keep in touch!! ❤ ❤

  2. Beautiful post about the process of aging; both the good and the bad! And I do think that the clarity we achieve at this point in our lives–having a better sense of who we are and what we want–helps to make up for the decline in our physical selves. Although, if I were strictly honest, I’m not sure which one I would pick if I actually had the choice!

    1. Well, we must try to stay as healthy both mentally and physically as we can! And of course, we never know what a day can bring anyway…young or old, so every day is one we must be grateful for no matter what age!!

  3. This speaks to us all and your words are really beautiful I was very moved by this. Thank you!

      1. It wasn’t bad at all! It took the oral surgeon about 5 minutes! I was shocked. I feel fine today too. That’s what I said in my blog…?? It seems that we should keep our wisdom teeth as we age shouldn’t we?? 🙂

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